Monday, November 26, 2012

Fifty Shades Freed CHAPTER 5


I stir, instinctively reaching for Christian only to feel his absence. Shit! I wake instantly
and look anxiously around the cabin. Christian is watching me from the
small, upholstered armchair by the bed. Stooping down, he places something on
the floor, then moves and stretches out on the bed beside me. He’s dressed in his
cut-offs and a gray T-shirt.
“Hey, don’t panic. Everything’s fine,” he says, his voice gentle and soothing—
like he’s talking to a cornered wild animal. Tenderly, he smooths the hair
back from my face and I calm immediately. I see him trying and failing to hide his
own concern.
“You’ve been so jumpy these last couple of days,” he murmurs, his eyes wide
and serious.
“I’m okay, Christian.” I give him my brightest smile because I don’t want
him to know how worried I am about the arson incident. The painful recollection
of how I felt when Charlie Tango was sabotaged and Christian went missing—the
hollow emptiness, the indescribable pain—keeps resurfacing; the memory nagging
me and gnawing at my heart. Keeping the smile fixed on my face, I try to
repress it.
“Were you watching me sleep?”
“Yes,” he says gazing at me steadily, studying me. “You were talking.”
“Oh?” Shit! What was I saying?
“You’re worried,” he adds, his eyes filled with concern. Is there nothing I can
keep from this man? He leans forward and kisses me between my brows.
“When you frown, a little V forms just here. It’s soft to kiss. Don’t worry
baby, I’ll look after you.”
“It’s not me I’m worried about, it’s you,” I grumble. “Who’s looking after
He smiles indulgently at my tone. “I’m big enough and ugly enough to look
after myself. Come. Get up. There’s one thing I’d like to do before we head
home.” He grins at me, a big boyish yes-I’m-really-only-twenty-eight grin, and
swats my behind. I yelp, startled, and realize that today we’re going back to
Seattle and my melancholy blossoms. I don’t want to leave. I’ve relished being
with him 24-7, and I’m not ready to share him with his company and his family.
We’ve had a blissful honeymoon. With a few ups and downs, I admit, but that’s
normal for a newly married couple, surely?
But Christian cannot contain his boyish excitement, and despite my dark
thoughts, it’s infectious. When he rises gracefully off the bed, I follow, intrigued.
What has he got in mind?
Christian straps the key to my wrist.
“You want me to drive?”
“Yes.” Christian grins. “That’s not too tight?”
“It’s fine. Is that why you’re wearing a life jacket?” I arch my eyebrow.
I can’t help my giggle. “Such confidence in my driving capabilities, Mr.
“As ever, Mrs. Grey.”
“Well, don’t lecture me.”
Christian holds his hands up in a defensive gesture, but he’s smiling. “Would
I dare?”
“Yes you would, and yes you do, and we can’t pull over and argue on the
sidewalk here.”
“Fair point well made, Mrs. Grey. Are we going to stand on this platform all
day debating your driving skills or are we going to have some fun?”
“Fair point well made, Mr. Grey.” I grasp the handlebars of the Jet Ski and
clamber on. Christian climbs on behind me and kicks us away from the yacht.
Taylor and two of the deckhands look on in amusement. Sliding forward, Christian
wraps his arms around me and snuggles his thighs against mine. Yes, this is
what I like about this form of transport. I insert in the ignition key and push the
start button, and the engine roars into life.
“Ready?” I shout to Christian over the noise.
“As I’ll ever be,” he says, his mouth close to my ear.
Gently, I pull on the lever and the Jet Ski moves away from the Fair Lady,
far too sedately for my liking. Christian tightens his embrace. I pull on the gas
some more, and we shoot forward and I’m delighted when we don’t stall.
“Whoa!” Christian calls from behind, but the exhilaration in his voice is palpable.
I speed past the Fair Lady toward the open sea. We’re anchored outside the
Port de Plaisance de Saint-Claude-du-Var, and Nice Côte d’Azur Airport is
nestled in the distance, built into the Mediterranean, or so it seems. I’ve heard the
odd plane landing since we arrived last night. I decide we need to take a closer
We shoot toward it, skipping rapidly over the waves. I love this, and I’m
thrilled Christian’s letting me drive. All the worry I’ve felt over the past two days
melts away as we skim toward the airport.
“Next time we do this we’ll have two Jet Skis,” Christian shouts. I grin because
the thought of racing him is thrilling.
As we zoom over the cool blue sea toward what looks like the end of the runway,
the thundering roar of a jet overhead suddenly startles me as it comes in to
land. It’s so loud I panic, swerving and hitting the throttle at the same time, mistaking
it for a brake.
“Ana!” Christian shouts, but it’s too late. I’m catapulted off the side of the Jet
Ski, arms and legs flailing, taking Christian with me in a spectacular splash.
Screaming, I plunge into the crystal blue sea and swallow a nasty mouthful of
the Mediterranean. The water is cold this far from the shore, but I surface within a
split second, courtesy of my life jacket. Coughing and spluttering, I wipe the seawater
from my eyes and look around for Christian. He’s already swimming toward
me. The Jet Ski floats inoffensively a few feet away from us, its engine
“You okay?” His eyes are full of panic, as he reaches me.
“Yes,” I croak, but I cannot contain my elation. See, Christian? That’s the
worst that can happen on a Jet Ski! He pulls me into his embrace, then grabs my
head between his hands, examining my face closely.
“See, that wasn’t so bad!” I grin as we tread water.
Eventually he smirks at me, obviously relieved. “No, I guess it wasn’t. Except
I’m wet,” he grumbles, but his tone is playful.
“I’m wet, too.”
“I like you wet.” He leers.
“Christian!” I scold, trying for faux righteous indignation. He grins, looking
gorgeous, then leans in and kisses me hard. When he pulls away, I’m breathless.
His eyes are darker, hooded and heated, and I’m warm in spite of the cold water.
“Come. Let’s head back. Now we have to shower. I’ll drive.”
We laze in the British Airways first class lounge at Heathrow in London, waiting
for our connecting flight to Seattle. Christian is engrossed in the Financial Times.
I pull out his camera, wanting to take some photographs of him. He looks so sexy
in his trademark white linen shirt and jeans, and his aviator specs tucked into the
V of his open shirt. The flash disturbs him. He blinks up at me and smiles his shy
“How are you, Mrs. Grey?” he asks.
“Sad to be going home,” I murmur. “I like having you to myself.”
He clasps my hand and lifting it to his lips, grazes my knuckles with a sweet
kiss. “Me too.”
“But?” I ask, hearing that small word unsaid at the end of his simple
He frowns. “But?” he repeats disingenuously. I tilt my head to one side, gazing
at him with the tell me expression I have been perfecting over the last couple
of days. He sighs, putting his newspaper down. “I want this arsonist caught and
out of our lives.”
“Oh.” That seems fair enough, but I’m surprised by his bluntness.
“I’ll have Welch’s balls on a platter if he lets anything like that happen
again.” A shiver runs down my spine at his menacing tone. He gazes at me impassively,
and I don’t know if he’s daring me to be flippant or what. I do the only
thing I can think of to ease the sudden tension between us and raise the camera
and snap another photograph.
“Hey, sleepyhead, we’re home,” Christian murmurs.
“Hmm,” I mumble, reluctant to leave my tantalizing dream of Christian and
me on a picnic blanket at Kew Gardens. I am so tired. Travelling is exhausting,
even in first class. We’ve been up for more than eighteen hours straight, I
think—in my fatigue I’ve lost track. I hear my door open, and Christian is leaning
over me. He unbuckles my seat belt and lifts me into his arms, waking me.
“Hey, I can walk,” I protest sleepily.
He snorts. “I need to carry you over the threshold.”
I put my arms around his neck. “Up all thirty floors?” I give him a challenging
“Mrs. Grey, I am very pleased to announce that you’ve put on some weight.”
He grins. “So if you don’t mind, we’ll use the elevator.” He narrows his eyes
at me, though I know he’s teasing.
Taylor opens the doors to the Escala lobby and smiles. “Welcome home Mr.
Grey, Mrs. Grey.”
“Thanks, Taylor,” says Christian.
I give Taylor the briefest of smiles and watch him head back to the Audi where Sawyer waits at the wheel.
“What do you mean I’ve put on weight?” I glare at Christian. His grin
broadens, and he clasps me closer to his chest as he carries me across the lobby.
“Not much,” he assures me but his face darkens suddenly.
“What is it?” I try to keep the alarm in my voice under control.
“You’ve put on some of the weight you lost when you left me,” he says
quietly as he summons the elevator. A bleak expression crosses his face.
His sudden, surprising anguish tugs at my heart. “Hey.” I curl my fingers
around his face and into his hair, pulling him toward me. “If I hadn’t gone, would
you be standing here, like this, now?”
His eyes melt, the color of a storm cloud, and he smiles his shy smile, my favorite
smile. “No,” he says and steps into the elevator still holding me. He leans
down and kisses me gently. “No, Mrs. Grey, I wouldn’t. But I would know I
could keep you safe, because you wouldn’t defy me.”
He sounds vaguely regretful . . . Shit.
“I like defying you.” I test the waters.
“I know. And it’s made me so . . . happy.” He smiles down at me through his
Oh, thank heavens. “Even though I’m fat?” I whisper.
He laughs. “Even though you’re fat.” He kisses me again, more heated this
time, and I fist my fingers in his hair, holding him against me, our tongues twisting
in a slow sensual dance with each other. When the elevator pings to a halt at
the penthouse, we are both breathless.
“Very happy,” he murmurs. His smile is darker now, his eyes hooded and full
of salacious promise. He shakes his head as if to recover himself and carries me
into the foyer.
“Welcome home, Mrs. Grey.” He kisses me again, more chastely this time,
and gives me the patented-Christian-Grey-full-gigawatt smile, his eyes dancing
with joy.
“Welcome home, Mr. Grey.” I beam, my heart answering his call, brimming
with my own joy.
I think Christian’s going to put me down, but he doesn’t. He carries me
through the foyer, across the corridor, into the great room, and deposits me on the
kitchen island where I sit with my legs dangling. He retrieves two champagne
flutes from the kitchen cupboard and a bottle of chilled champagne from the
fridge—our favorite Bollinger. He deftly opens the bottle, not spilling a drop,
pours the pale pink champagne into each glass, and hands one to me. Taking up
the other, he gently parts my legs and moves forward to stand between them.
“Here’s to us, Mrs. Grey.”
“To us, Mr. Grey,” I whisper conscious of my shy smile. We clink glasses
and take a sip.
“I know you’re tired,” he whispers, rubbing his nose against mine. “But I’d
really like to go to bed . . . and not to sleep.” He kisses the corner of my mouth.
“It’s our first night back here, and you’re really mine.” His voice drifts off as he
plants soft kisses down my throat. It’s early evening in Seattle, and I am dog-tired,
but desire blooms deep in my belly and my inner goddess purrs.
Christian is slumbering peacefully beside me as I stare at the pink and golden
streaks of the new dawn through the vast windows. His arm is draped loosely over
my breasts, and I try to match his breathing in an effort to get back to sleep, but
it’s hopeless. I’m wide-awake, my body clock on Greenwich mean time, my mind
So much has happened in the last three weeks—who am I kidding, the last
three months—that I feel that my feet haven’t touched the ground. And now here I
am, Mrs. Anastasia Grey, married to the most delicious, sexy, philanthropic, absurdly
wealthy mogul a woman could meet. How did this all happen so fast?
I shift onto my side to gaze at him, appraising his beauty. I know he watches
me sleep, but I rarely get the opportunity to repay the compliment. He looks so
young and carefree in his sleep, his long lashes fanned against his cheek, a light
smattering of stubble covering his jaw, and his sculptured lips slightly parted, relaxed
as he breathes deeply. I want to kiss him, to push my tongue between his
lips, run my fingers over his soft yet prickly stubble. I really have to fight the urge
not to touch him, not to disturb him. Hmm . . . I could just tease his earlobe with
my teeth and suck. My subconscious glares up at me over her half-moon spectacles,
distracted from volume two of the Complete Works of Charles Dickens,
and mentally chastises me. Leave the poor man alone, Ana.
I am back to work on Monday. We have today to reacclimatize, then we’re
back into our routine. It will be odd not seeing Christian for a whole day after
spending almost every minute together for the last three weeks. I lie back and
stare at the ceiling. One would think that spending so much time together would
be suffocating, but that’s just not the case. I’ve loved each and every minute, even
our fighting. Every minute . . . except the news of the fire at Grey House.
My blood chills. Who could want to harm Christian? My mind gnaws at this
mystery again. Someone in his business? An ex? A disgruntled employee? I have
no idea, and Christian remains tight-lipped about it all, drip feeding me the minimum
information he can get away with in a bid to protect me. I sigh. My shining
white-and-dark knight always trying to protect me. How am I going to make him
open up more?
He stirs and I still, not wanting to wake him, but it has the opposite effect.
Damn! Two bright eyes gaze at me.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. Go back to sleep.” I try my reassuring smile. He stretches, rubs his
face, and then grins at me.
“Jet lag?” he asks.
“Is that what this is? I can’t sleep.”
“I have the universal panacea right here, just for you, baby.” He grins like a
schoolboy, making me roll my eyes and giggle at the same time. And just like that
my dark thoughts are swept aside and my teeth find his earlobe.
Christian and I cruise north on the I-5 toward the 520 bridge in the Audi R8. We
are going to have lunch at his parents’, a welcome-home Sunday lunch. All the
family will be there, plus Kate and Ethan. It will be strange to be in so much company
when we’ve been on our own all this time. I haven’t had an opportunity to
talk to Christian most of the morning. He was holed up in his study while I unpacked.
He said I didn’t have to, that Mrs. Jones would do it. But that’s something
else I need to get used to—having domestic help. I run my fingers absentmindedly
over the leather upholstery of the door to distract my wandering thoughts. I feel
out of sorts. Is it the jet lag? The arson?
“Would you let me drive this?” I ask, surprised that I say the words out loud.
“Of course,” Christian replies, smiling. “What’s mine is yours. If you dent it,
though, I will take you into the Red Room of Pain.” He glances swiftly at me with
a malicious grin.
Shit! I gape at him. Is this a joke?
“You’re kidding. You’d punish me for denting your car? You love your car
more than you love me?” I tease.
“It’s close,” he says and reaches across to squeeze my knee. “But she doesn’t
keep me warm at night.”
“I’m sure it could be arranged. You could sleep in her,” I snap.
Christian laughs. “We haven’t been home one day and you’re kicking me out
already?” He seems delighted. I gaze at him and he gives me a face-splitting grin,
and although I want to be mad at him, it’s impossible when he’s in this kind of
mood. Now that I think about it, he’s been in a better frame of mind ever since he
left his study this morning. And it dawns on me that I’m being petulant because
we have to go back to reality, and I don’t know if he’s going to revert to the more
closed pre-honeymoon Christian, or if I’ll get to keep the new improved version.
“Why are you so pleased?” I ask.
He flashes yet another grin at me. “Because this conversation is so . . .
“Normal!” I snort. “Not after three weeks of marriage! Surely.”
His smile slips.
“I’m kidding, Christian,” I mutter quickly, not wanting to kill his mood. It
strikes me how unsure he is of himself sometimes. I suspect that he’s always been
like this, but has just hidden his uncertainty beneath an intimidating exterior. He’s
very easy to tease, probably because he’s not used to it. It’s a revelation, and I
marvel again that we still have so much to learn about each other.
“Don’t worry, I’ll stick to the Saab,” I mutter and turn to stare out of the window,
trying to shake off my bad mood.
“Hey. What’s wrong?”
“You’re so frustrating sometimes, Ana. Tell me.”
I turn and smirk at him. “Back at you, Grey.”
He frowns. “I’m trying,” he says softly.
“I know. Me too.” I smile and my mood brightens a little.
Carrick looks ridiculous in his chef’s hat and Licensed to Grill apron as he stands
at the barbecue. Every time I look at him, it makes me smile. In fact, my spirits
have lifted considerably. We are all sitting around the table on the terrace of the
Grey family home, enjoying the late summer sun. Grace and Mia are setting various
salads out on the table, while Elliot and Christian trade friendly insults and
discuss plans for the new house, and Ethan and Kate grill me about our honeymoon.
Christian keeps hold of my hand, his fingers toying with my wedding and
engagement rings.
“So if you can get the plans finalized with Gia, I have a window September
through to mid-November and can get the whole crew on it,” Elliot says as he
stretches and drops an arm around Kate’s shoulder, making her smile.
“Gia is due to come over to discuss the plans tomorrow evening,” replies
Christian. “I hope we can finalize everything then.” He turns and looks expectantly
at me.
Oh . . . this is news.
“Sure.” I smile at him, mostly for the benefit of his family, but my spirits take
a nosedive again. Why does he make these decisions without telling me? Or is it
the thought of Gia—all lush hips, full breasts, expensive designer clothes, and
perfume—smiling too provocatively at my husband? My subconscious glares at
me. He’s given you no reason to be jealous. Shit, I am up and down today. What’s
wrong with me?
“Ana,” Kate exclaims, snapping me out of my reverie. “You still in the South
of France?”
“Yes,” I reply with a smile.
“You look so well,” she says, though she frowns as she says it.
“You both do.” Grace beams while Elliot refills our glasses.
“To the happy couple.” Carrick grins and raises his glass, and everyone
around the table echoes the sentiment.
“And congratulations to Ethan for getting into the psych program at Seattle,”
chips in Mia proudly. She gives him an adoring smile, and Ethan smirks at her. I
wonder idly if she’s made any headway with him. It’s difficult to tell.
I listen to the banter around the table. Christian is running through our extensive
itinerary over the last three weeks, embellishing here and there. He sounds
relaxed and in control, the worry of the arsonist forgotten. I, on the other hand,
don’t seem to be able to shake my mood. I pick at my food. Christian said I was
fat yesterday. He was joking! My subconscious glares at me again. Elliot accidentally
knocks his glass onto the terrace, startling everyone, and there’s a sudden
flurry of activity to get it cleaned up.
“I am going to take you to the boathouse and finally spank you in there if you
don’t snap out of this mood,” Christian whispers to me.
I gasp with shock, turn, and gape at him. What? Is he teasing me?
“You wouldn’t dare!” I growl at him and from deep inside I feel a familiar,
welcome excitement. He cocks an eyebrow at me. Of course he would. I glance
quickly at Kate across the table. She’s watching us with interest. I turn back to
Christian, narrowing my eyes at him.
“You’d have to catch me first—and I’m wearing flats,” I hiss.
“I’d have fun trying,” he whispers with a licentious grin, and I think he’s joking.
I blush. Confusingly, I feel better.
As we finish our dessert of strawberries and cream, the heavens open and unexpectedly
soak us. We all leap up to clear the plates and glasses from the table,
depositing them in the kitchen.
“Good thing the weather held off till we finished,” Grace says pleased, as we
drift into the back room den. Christian sits down at the shiny black upright piano,
presses the quiet pedal, and starts to play a familiar tune that I can’t immediately
Grace asks me for my impressions of Saint Paul de Vence. She and Carrick
went years ago during their honeymoon, and it occurs to me that this is a good
omen, seeing how happy they are together now. Kate and Elliot are cuddling on
one of the large overstuffed couches, while Ethan, Mia, and Carrick are deep in a
conversation about psychology, I think.
Suddenly, as one, all the Greys stop talking and gape at Christian.
Christian is singing softly to himself at the piano. Silence descends on us all
as we strain to hear his soft, lyrical voice. I’ve heard him sing before, haven’t
they? He stops, suddenly conscious of the deathly hush that’s fallen over the
room. Kate glances questioningly at me and I shrug. Christian turns on the stool
and frowns, embarrassed to realize he’s become the center of attention.
“Go on,” Grace urges softly. “I’ve never heard you sing, Christian. Ever.”
She stares at him in wonder. He sits on the piano stool, looking absently at her,
and after a beat, he shrugs. His eyes flicker nervously to me, then over to the
French windows. The rest of the room suddenly erupts in self-conscious chatter,
and I’m left watching my dear husband.
Grace distracts me, grasping my hands then suddenly folding me in her arms.
“Oh, darling girl! Thank you, thank you,” she whispers, so only I can hear. It
brings a lump to my throat.
“Um . . .” I hug her back, not really sure why I am being thanked. Grace
smiles, her eyes shining, and kisses my cheek. Oh my . . . What have I done?
“I am going to make some tea,” she says, her voice hoarse with unshed tears.
I amble over to Christian who is now standing, staring out through the French
“Hi,” I murmur.
“Hi.” He puts his arm around my waist, pulling me to him, and I slip my hand
into the back pocket of his jeans. We gaze out at the rain.
“Feeling better?”
I nod.
“You certainly know how to silence a room.”
“I do it all the time,” he says and he grins at me.
“At work, yes, but not here.”
“True, not here.”
“No one’s ever heard you sing? Ever?”
“It appears not,” he says dryly. “Shall we go?”
I gaze up at him, trying to gauge his mood. His eyes are soft and warm and
slightly bemused. I decide to change the subject.
“You going to spank me?” I whisper, and suddenly there are butterflies in my
stomach. Perhaps this is what I need . . . this is what I have been missing.
He gazes down at me, his eyes darkening.
“I don’t want to hurt you, but I’m more than happy to play.”
I glance nervously around the large room, but we are out of earshot.
“Only if you misbehave, Mrs. Grey.” He bends and murmurs in my ear.
How can he put so much sensual promise into six words?
“I’ll see what I can do.” I grin.
Once we’ve said our good-byes, we walk over to the car.
“Here.” Christian throws me the keys to the R8. “Don’t bend it”—he adds in
all seriousness—“or I will be fucking pissed.”
My mouth goes dry. He’s letting me drive his car? My inner goddess whips
on her leather driving gloves and flat shoes. Oh yes! she cries.
“Are you sure?” I mouth, stunned.
“Yes, before I change my mind.”
I don’t think I have ever grinned so hard. He rolls his eyes and opens the
driver’s door so that I can climb in. I start the engine before he’s even reached the
passenger side, and he jumps in quickly.
“Eager, Mrs. Grey?” he asks with a wry smile.
Slowly, I ease the car backward and turn it in the driveway. I manage not to
stall it, surprising myself. Boy, is the clutch sensitive. Carefully navigating the
driveway, I glance in my rearview mirror and see Sawyer and Ryan climb into the
Audi SUV. I had no idea our security had followed us here. I pause before I set
out onto the main road.
“You’re sure about this?”
“Yes,” Christian says tightly, telling me he’s not sure about this at all. Oh, my
poor, poor Fifty. I want to laugh at both him and myself because I’m nervous and
excited. A small part of me wants to lose Sawyer and Ryan just for the kicks. I
check for traffic then inch the R8 out onto the road. Christian curls up with tension
and I can’t resist. The road is clear. I put my foot down on the gas and we
shoot forward.
“Whoa! Ana!” Christian shouts. “Slow down—you’ll kill us both.”
I immediately ease off the gas. Wow, can this car move!
“Sorry,” I mutter, trying to sound contrite and failing miserably. Christian
smirks at me, to hide his relief, I think.
“Well, that counts as misbehaving,” he says casually and I slow right down.
I glance in the rearview mirror. No sign of the Audi, just a solitary dark car
with tinted windows behind us. I imagine Sawyer and Ryan flustered, frantic to
catch up, and for some reason this gives me a thrill. But not wanting to give my
dear husband a coronary, I decide to behave and drive steadily with growing confidence
toward the 520 bridge.
Suddenly, Christian swears and struggles to pull his BlackBerry from the
pocket of his jeans.
“What?” he snaps angrily at whoever it is on the other end of the line. “No.”
he says and glances behind us. “Yes. She is.”
I briefly check the rearview mirror, but I don’t see anything odd, just a few
cars behind us. The SUV is about four cars back, and we’re all cruising at an even
“I see.” Christian sighs long and hard and rubs his forehead with his fingers,
tension radiates off him. Something’s wrong.
“Yes . . . I don’t know.” He glances at me and lowers the phone from his ear.
“We’re fine. Keep going,” he says calmly, smiling at me, but the smile doesn’t
touch his eyes. Shit! Adrenaline spikes through my system. He picks the phone up
“Okay on the 520. As soon as we hit it . . . Yes . . . I will.”
He slots the phone into the speaker cradle, putting it on hands-free.
“What’s wrong, Christian?”
“Just look where you’re going, baby,” he says softly.
I’m heading for the on-ramp of the 520 in the direction of Seattle. When I
glance at Christian, he’s staring straight ahead.
“I don’t want you to panic,” he says calmly. “But as soon as we’re on the 520
proper, I want you to step on the gas. We’re being followed.”
Followed! Holy shit. My heart lurches into my mouth, pounding, my scalp
prickles and my throat constricts with panic. Followed by whom? My eyes dart to
the rearview mirror and, sure enough, the dark car I saw earlier is still behind us.
Fuck! Is that it? I squint through the tinted windshield to see who’s driving, but I
see nothing.
“Keep your eyes on the road, baby,” Christian says gently, not in the truculent
tone he normally uses where my driving is concerned.
Get a grip! I mentally slap myself to subdue the dread that’s threatening to
swamp me. Suppose whoever’s following us is armed? Armed and after Christian!
Shit! I’m hit by a wave of nausea.
“How do we know we’re being followed?” My voice is a breathy, squeaky,
“The Dodge behind us has false license plates.”
How does he know that?
I signal as we approach the 520 from the on-ramp. It’s late afternoon, and although
the rain has stopped, the roadway is wet. Fortunately, the traffic is reasonably
Ray’s voice echoes in my head from one of his many self-defense lectures.
“It’s the panic that’s gonna kill you or get you seriously hurt, Annie.” I take a
deep breath, trying to bring my breathing under control. Whoever is following us
is after Christian. As I take another deep steadying breath, my mind begins to
clear and my stomach settles. I have to keep Christian safe. I wanted to drive this
car, and I wanted to drive it fast. Well, here’s my chance. I grip the steering wheel
and take a final glance in my rearview mirror. The Dodge is closing on us.
I slow right down, ignoring Christian’s sudden panicked glance at me, and
time my entrance on to the 520 so that the Dodge has to slow and stop to wait for
a gap in the traffic. I drop a gear and floor it. The R8 shoots forward, slamming us
both into the backs of our seats. The speedometer whips up to seventy-five miles
per hour.
“Steady, baby,” Christian says calmly, though I’m sure he’s anything but
I weave between the two lines of traffic like a black counter in a game of
checkers, effectively jumping the cars and trucks. We’re so close to the lake on
this bridge, it’s as if we’re driving on the water. I studiously ignore the angry, disapproving
looks from other drivers. Christian clutches his hands together in his
lap, keeping as still as possible, and in spite of my fevered thoughts, I wonder
vaguely if he’s doing it so he doesn’t distract me.
“Good girl,” he breathes in encouragement. He glances behind him. “I can’t
see the Dodge.”
“We’re right behind the unsub, Mr. Grey.” Sawyer’s voice comes through the
hands-free. “He’s trying to catch up with you, sir. We’re going to try and come
alongside, put ourselves between your car and the Dodge.”
Unsub? What does that mean?
“Good. Mrs. Grey is doing well. At this rate, provided the traffic remains
light—and from what I can see it is—we’ll be off the bridge in a few minutes.”
We flash past the bridge control tower, and I know we’re half way across
Lake Washington. When I check my speed, I’m still doing seventy-five.
“You’re doing really well, Ana,” Christian murmurs again as he gazes out the
back of the R8. For a fleeting moment, his tone reminds me of our first encounter
in his playroom when he patiently encouraged me through our first scene. The
thought is distracting, and I dismiss it immediately.
“Where am I headed?” I ask, moderately calmer. I have the feel of the car
now. It’s a joy to drive, so quiet and easy to handle it’s hard to believe how fast
we are going. Driving at this speed in this car is easy.
“Mrs. Grey, head for I-5 and then south. We want to see if the Dodge follows
you all the way,” Sawyer says over the hands-free. The traffic lights on the bridge
are green—thank heavens—and I race onward.
I glance nervously at Christian, and he smiles reassuringly. Then his face
“Shit!” he swears softly.
There is a line of traffic ahead as we come off the bridge, and I have to slow.
Glancing anxiously in the mirror once more, I think I spot the Dodge.
“Ten or so cars back?”
“Yeah, I see it,” Christian says, peering through the narrow rear window. “I
wonder who the fuck it is?”
“Me too. Do we know if it’s a man driving?” I blurt out toward the cradled
“No, Mrs. Grey. Could be a man or woman. The tint is too dark.”
“A woman?” Christian says.
I shrug. “Your Mrs. Robinson?” I suggest, not taking my eyes off the road.
Christian stiffens and lifts the BlackBerry out of its cradle. “She’s not my
Mrs. Robinson,” he growls. “I haven’t spoken to her since my birthday. And
Elena wouldn’t do this. It’s not her style.”
“She’s in Connecticut with her parents. I told you.”
“Are you sure?”
He pauses. “No. But if she’d absconded, I’m sure her folks would have let
Flynn know. Let’s discuss this when we’re home. Concentrate on what you’re
“But it might just be some random car.”
“I’m not taking any risks. Not where you’re concerned,” he snaps. He replaces
the BlackBerry in its cradle so we’re back in contact with our security
Oh shit. I don’t want to rattle Christian right now . . . later maybe. I hold my
tongue. Fortunately, the traffic is thinning a little. I am able to speed over the
Mountlake intersection toward the I-5, weaving through the cars again.
“What if we get stopped by the cops?” I ask.
“That would be a good thing.”
“Not for my license.”
“Don’t worry about that,” he says. Unexpectedly, I hear humor in his voice.
I put my foot down again, and hit seventy-five. Boy, this car can move. I love
it—she’s so easy. I touch eighty-five. I don’t think I have ever driven this fast. I
was lucky if my Beetle ever hit fifty miles an hour.
“He’s cleared the traffic and picked up speed.” Sawyer’s disembodied voice
is calm and informative. “He’s doing ninety.”
Shit! Faster! I press down on the gas and the car purrs to ninety-five miles
per hour as we approach the I-5 intersection.
“Keep it up, Ana,” Christian murmurs.
I slow momentarily as we glide onto the I-5. The interstate is fairly quiet, and
I’m able to cross straight over to the fast lane in a split second. As I put my foot
down, the glorious R8 zooms forward, and we tear down the left lane, lesser mortals
pulling over to let us pass. If I wasn’t so frightened, I might really enjoy this.
“He’s hit one hundred miles per hour, sir.”
“Stay with him, Luke,” Christian barks at Sawyer.
A truck lurches into the fast lane—Shit!—and I have to slam on the brakes.
“Fucking idiot!” Christian curses the driver as we lurch forward in our seats.
I am grateful for our seatbelts.
“Go around him, baby,” Christian says through clenched teeth. I check my
mirrors and cut right across three lanes. We speed past the slower vehicles and
then cut back to the fast lane.
“Nice move, Mrs. Grey,” Christian murmurs appreciatively. “Where are the
cops when you need them?”
“I don’t want a ticket, Christian,” I mutter, concentrating on the highway
ahead. “Have you had a speeding ticket driving this?”
“No,” he says, but glancing quickly at him, I can see his smirk.
“Have you been stopped?”
“Charm, Mrs. Grey. It all comes down to charm. Now concentrate. Where’s
the Dodge, Sawyer?”
“He’s just hit one hundred and ten, sir.” Sawyer says.
Holy fuck! My heart leaps once more into my mouth. Can I drive any faster? I
push my foot down once more and streak past the traffic.
“Flash the headlights,” Christian orders when a Ford Mustang won’t move.
“But that would make me an asshole.”
“So be an asshole!” he snaps.
Jeez. Okay! “Um, where are the headlights?”
“The indicator. Pull it toward you.”
I do it, and the Mustang moves aside though not before the driver waves his
finger at me in a none-too-complimentary manner. I zoom past him.
“He’s the asshole,” Christian says under his breath, then barks at me, “get off
on Stewart.”
Yes sir!
“We’re taking the Stewart Street exit,” Christian says to Sawyer.
“Head straight to Escala, sir.”
I slow, check my mirrors, signal, then move with surprising ease across four
lanes of the highway and down the off-ramp. Merging onto Stewart Street, we
head south. The street is quiet, with few vehicles. Where is everyone?
“We’ve been damned lucky with the traffic. But that means the Dodge has,
too. Don’t slow down, Ana. Get us home.”
“I can’t remember the way,” I mutter, panicked by the fact the Dodge is still
on our tail.
“Head south on Stewart. Keep going until I tell you when.” Christian sounds
anxious again. I zoom past three blocks but the lights change to yellow on Yale
“Run them, Ana,” Christian shouts. I jump so hard I floor the gas pedal,
throwing us both back in our seats, speeding through the now red light.
“He’s taking Stewart,” Sawyer says.
“Stay with him, Luke.”
“That’s his name.”
A quick glance and I can see Christian glaring at me as if I’m crazy. “Eyes on
the road!” he snaps.
I ignore his tone. “Luke Sawyer.”
“Yes!” He sounds exasperated.
“Ah.” How did I not know this? The man has been following me to work for
the last six weeks, and I didn’t even know his first name.
“That’s me, ma’am,” Sawyer says, startling me, though he’s speaking in the
calm, monotone voice he always uses. “The unsub is heading down Stewart, sir.
He’s really picking up speed.”
“Go, Ana. Less of the fucking chitchat,” Christian growls.
“We’re stopped at the first light on Stewart.” Sawyer informs us.
“Ana—quick—in here,” Christian shouts, pointing to a parking lot on the
south side of Boren Avenue. I turn, the tires screeching in protest as I swerve into
the crowded lot.
“Drive around. Quick,” Christian orders. I drive as fast as I can to the back,
out of sight of the street. “In there.” Christian points to a space. Shit! He wants me
to park it. Crap!
“Just fucking do it,” he says. So I do . . . perfectly. Probably the only time I
have ever parked perfectly.
“We’re hidden in the parking lot between Stewart and Boren,” Christian says
into the BlackBerry.
“Okay, sir.” Sawyer sounds irritated. “Stay where you are; we’ll follow the
Christian turns to me, his eyes searching my face. “You okay?”
“Sure,” I whisper.
Christian smirks. “Whoever’s driving that Dodge can’t hear us, you know.”
And I laugh.
“We’re passing Stewart and Boren now, sir. I see the lot. He’s gone straight
past you, sir.”
Both of us sag simultaneously with relief.
“Well done, Mrs. Grey. Good driving.” Christian gently strokes my face with
his fingertips, and I jump at the contact, inhaling deeply. I had no idea I was holding
my breath.
“Does this mean you’ll stop complaining about my driving?” I ask. He
laughs—a loud cathartic laugh.
“I wouldn’t go so far as to say that.”
“Thank you for letting me drive your car. Under such exciting circumstances,
too.” I try desperately to keep my voice light.
“Maybe I should drive now.”
“To be honest, I don’t think I can climb out right now to let you sit here. My
legs feel like Jell-O.” Suddenly I’m shuddering and shaking.
“It’s the adrenaline, baby,” he says. “You did amazingly well, as usual. You
blow me away, Ana. You never let me down.” He touches my cheek tenderly with
the back of his hand, his face full of love, fear, regret—so many emotions at
once—and his words are my undoing. Overwhelmed, a strangled sob escapes
from my constricted throat, and I start to cry.
“No, baby, no. Please don’t cry.” He reaches over and, despite the limited
space we have, pulls me over the handbrake console to cradle me in his lap.
Smoothing my hair off my face, he kisses my eyes, then my cheeks, and I curl my
arms around him and sob quietly into his neck. He buries his nose in my hair and
wraps me in his arms, holding me tight and we sit, neither of us saying anything,
just holding each other.
Sawyer’s voice startles us. “The unsub has slowed outside Escala. He’s casing
the joint.”
“Follow him,” Christian snaps.
I wipe my nose on the back of my hand and take a deep steadying breath.
“Use my shirt.” Christian kisses my temple.
“Sorry,” I mutter, embarrassed by my crying.
“What for? Don’t be.”
I wipe my nose again. He tips my chin up and plants a gentle kiss on my lips.
“Your lips are so soft when you cry, my beautiful, brave girl,” he whispers.
“Kiss me again.”
Christian stills, one hand on my back, the other on my behind.
“Kiss me,” I breathe, and I watch his lips part as he inhales sharply. Leaning
across me, he takes the BlackBerry out of its cradle, and tosses it onto the driver’s
seat beside my sandaled feet. Then his mouth is on me as he moves his right hand
into my hair, holding me in place, and lifts his left to cradle my face. His tongue
invades my mouth, and I welcome it. Adrenaline turns to lust streaking through
my body. I clasp his face, running my fingers over his sideburns, relishing the
taste of him. He groans at my fevered response, low and deep in his throat, and
my belly tightens swift and hard with carnal desire. His hand moves down my
body, brushing my breast, my waist, and down to my backside. I shift fractionally.
“Ah!” he says and breaks away from me, breathless.
“What?” I mutter against his lips.
“Ana, we’re in a car lot in Seattle.”
“Well, right now I want to fuck you, and you’re shifting around on me . . .
it’s uncomfortable.”
My craving spirals out of control at his words, tightening all my muscles below
my waist once more.
“Fuck me then.” I kiss the corner of his mouth. I want him. Now. That car
chase was exciting. Too exciting. Terrifying . . . and the fear has jump-started my
libido. He leans back to gaze at me, his eyes dark and hooded.
“Here?” His voice is husky.
My mouth goes dry. How can he turn me on with one word? “Yes. I want
you. Now.”
He tilts his head to one side and stares at me for a few moments. “Mrs. Grey,
how very brazen,” he whispers, after what feels like an eternity. His hand tightens
around my hair at my nape, holding me firmly in place, and his mouth is on mine
again, more forcefully this time. His other hand skims down my body, down over
my behind and lower still to my mid-thigh. My fingers curl into his overlong hair.
“I’m so glad you’re wearing a skirt,” he murmurs as he slips his hand beneath
my blue and white patterned skirt to caress my thigh. I squirm once more on his
lap and the air hisses between his teeth.
“Keep still,” he growls. He cups my sex with his hand, and I still immediately.
His thumb brushes over my clitoris, and my breath catches in my throat as
pleasure jolts like electricity deep, deep, deep inside me.
“Still,” he whispers. He kisses me once more as his thumb circles gently
around me through the sheer fine lace of my designer underwear. Slowly he eases
two fingers passed my panties and inside me. I groan and flex my hips toward his
“Please,” I whisper.
“Oh, Mrs. Grey. You’re so ready,” he says, sliding his fingers in and out, tortuously
slowly. “Do car chases turn you on?”
“You turn me on.”
He smiles a wolfish grin and withdraws his fingers suddenly, leaving me
wanting. He scoops his arm under my knees and, taking me by surprise, he lifts
me and swings me around to face the windshield.
“Place your legs either side of mine,” he orders, putting his legs together in
the middle of the footwell. I do as I’m told, placing my feet on the floor on either
side of his. He runs his hands down my thighs, then back, pulling up my skirt.
“Hands on my knees, baby. Lean forward. Lift that glorious ass in the air.
Mind your head.”
Shit! We really are going to do this, in a public parking lot. I quickly scan the
area in front of us and see no one, but feel a thrill coursing through me. I’m in a
public lot! This is so hot! Christian shifts beneath me, and I hear the telltale sound
of his zipper. Putting one arm around my waist and with his other hand tugging
my lacy panties sideways, he impales me in one swift move.
“Ah!” I cry out, grinding down on him, and his breath hisses through his
teeth. His arm snakes around me up to my neck and he grasps me under my chin.
His hand spreads across my neck, pulling me back and tilting my head to one side
so he can kiss my throat. His other hand grips my hip and together we start to
I push up with my feet, and he tilts himself into me—in and out. The sensation
is . . . I groan loudly. It’s so deep this way. My left hand curls around the
hand brake, my right hand braced against my door. His teeth graze my earlobe
and he tugs—it’s almost painful. He bucks again and again into me. I rise and fall,
and as we establish a rhythm, he moves his hand around beneath my skirt to the
apex of my thighs, and his fingers gently tease my clitoris through the sheer finery
of my panties.
“Be. Quick,” he breathes into my ear through gritted teeth, his hand still
curled around my neck beneath my chin. “We need to do this quick, Ana.” And he
increases the pressure of his fingers against my sex.
“Ah!” I feel the familiar build of pleasure, bunching deep and thick inside
“Come on, baby,” he rasps at my ear. “I want to hear you.”
I moan again, and I am all sensation, my eyes tightly closed. His voice at my
ear, his breath on my neck, pleasure radiating out from where his fingers tease my
body and where he slams deep inside me, and I am lost. My body takes control,
craving release.
“Yes,” Christian hisses in my ear and I open my eyes briefly, staring wildly
at the cloth roof of the R8, and I scrunch them closed again as I come around him.
“Oh, Ana,” he murmurs in wonder, and he wraps his arms around me and
rams into me one last time and stills as he climaxes deep inside.
He runs his nose along my jaw and softly kisses my throat, my cheek, my
temple as a lie on him, my head lolling against his neck.
“Tension relieved, Mrs. Grey?” Christian closes his teeth around my earlobe
again and tugs. My body is drained, totally exhausted, and I mewl. I feel his smile
against me.
“Certainly helped with mine,” he adds, shifting me off him. “Lost your
“Yes,” I murmur.
“Well aren’t you the wanton creature? I had no idea you were such an
I sit up immediately, alarmed. He tenses. “No one’s watching are they?” I
glance anxiously around the car lot.
“Do you think I’d let anyone watch my wife come?” He strokes his hand
down my back reassuringly, but the tone of his voice sends shivers down my
spine. I turn to gaze at him and grin impishly.
“Car sex!” I exclaim.
He grins and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear. “Let’s head back. I’ll
He opens the door to let me climb off his lap and out into the parking lot.
When I glance down he’s quickly doing up his fly. He follows me out and then
holds the door open for me to climb back in. Strolling quickly around to the
driver’s side, he climbs in beside me, retrieves the BlackBerry, and makes a call.
“Where’s Sawyer?” he snaps. “And the Dodge? How come Sawyer’s not
with you?”
He listens intently to Ryan, I assume.
“Her?” he gasps. “Stick with her.” Christian hangs up and gazes at me.
Her! The driver of the car? Who could that be—Elena? Leila?
“The driver of the Dodge is female?”
“So it would appear,” he says quietly. His mouth presses into a thin angry
line. “Let’s get you home,” he mutters. He starts up the R8 with a roar and reverses
smoothly out of the space.
“Where’s the, er . . . unsub? What does that mean by the way? Sounds very
Christian smiles briefly as he eases the car out of the lot and back onto Stewart
“It stands for Unknown Subject. Ryan is ex-FBI.”
“Don’t ask.” Christian shakes his head. It’s obvious he’s deep in
“Well, where is this female unsub?”
“On the I-5, heading south.” He glances at me, his eyes grim.
Jeez—from passionate to calm to anxious in the space of a few moments. I
reach over and caress his thigh, running my fingers leisurely up the inside seam of
his jeans, hoping to improve his mood. He takes his hand off the steering wheel
and stops the slow ascent of my hand.
“No,” he says. “We’ve made it this far. You don’t want me to have an accident
three blocks from home.” He raises my hand to his lips and plants a cool kiss
on my index finger to take the sting out of his rebuke. Cool, calm, authoritative
. . . My Fifty. And for the first time in a while he makes me feel like a wayward
child. I withdraw my hand and sit quietly for a moment.
“Apparently so.” He sighs, turns into the underground garage at Escala, and
punches the access code into the security keypad. The gate swings open and he
drives on, smoothly parking the R8 in its designated space.
“I really like this car,” I murmur.
“Me too. And I like how you handled it—and how you managed not to break
“You can buy me one for my birthday,” I smirk at him.
Christian’s mouth drops open as I climb out of the car.
“A white one, I think,” I add, leaning down and smirking at him.
He smiles. “Anastasia Grey, you never cease to amaze me.”
I shut the door and walk to the end of the car to wait for him. Gracefully he
climbs out, watching me with that look . . . that look that calls to something deep
inside me. I know this look well. Once he’s in front of me, he leans down and
whispers, “You like the car. I like the car. I’ve fucked you in it . . . perhaps I
should fuck you on it.”
I gasp. And a sleek silver BMW pulls into the garage. Christian glances at it
anxiously, then with annoyance and smirks down at me.
“But it looks like we have company. Come.” He grabs my hand and heads for
the garage elevator. He pushes the call button and as we wait, the driver of the
BMW joins us. He’s young, casually dressed, with long, layered, dark hair. He
looks like he works in the media.
“Hi,” he says, smiling warmly at us.
Christian puts his arm around me and nods politely.
“I’ve just moved in. Apartment sixteen.”
“Hello.” I return his smile. He has kind, soft brown eyes.
The elevator arrives and we all walk in. Christian glances down at me, his expression
“You’re Christian Grey,” the young man says.
Christian gives him a tight smile.
“Noah Logan.” He holds out his hand. Reluctantly, Christian takes it. “Which
floor?” Noah asks.
“I have to input a code.”
“Oh.” Noah smiles broadly. “Of course.” He presses the button for the eighth
floor and the doors close. “Mrs. Grey, I presume.”
“Yes.” I give him a polite smile and we shake hands. Noah flushes a little as
he gazes at me a fraction too long. I mirror his flush and Christian’s arm tightens
around me.
“When did you move in?” I ask.
“Last weekend. I love the place.”
There’s an awkward pause before the elevator stops at Noah’s floor.
“Great to meet you both,” he says sounding relieved and steps out. The doors
close silently behind him. Christian taps in the entry code and the elevator ascends
“He seemed nice,” I murmur. “I’ve never met any of the neighbors before.”
Christian scowls. “I prefer it that way.”
“That’s because you’re a hermit. I thought he was pleasant enough.”
“A hermit?”
“Hermit. Stuck in your ivory tower,” I state matter-of-factly. Christian’s lips
twitch with amusement.
“Our ivory tower. And I think you have another name to add to the list of
your admirers, Mrs. Grey.”
I roll my eyes. “Christian, you think everyone is an admirer.”
“Did you just roll your eyes at me?”
My pulse quickens. “I sure did,” I whisper, my breath catching in my throat.
He cocks his head to one side, wearing his smoldering, arrogant, amused expression.
“What shall we do about that?”
“Something rough.”
He blinks to hide his surprise. “Rough?”
“You want more?”
I nod slowly. The doors to the elevator open and we’re home.
“How rough?” he breathes, his eyes darkening.
I gaze at him, saying nothing. He closes his eyes for a moment, and then
grabs my hand and hauls me into the foyer.
When we burst through the double doors, Sawyer is standing in the hallway,
looking expectantly at the two of us.
“Sawyer, I’d like to be debriefed in an hour,” Christian says.
“Yes, sir.” Turning, Sawyer heads back into Taylor’s office.
We have an hour!
Christian glances down at me. “Rough?”
I nod.
“Well, Mrs. Grey, you’re in luck. I’m taking requests today.”